“You will never find success until you change something you do daily. The secret of your success is found in your daily routine” — John Maxwell
Recovery from an addiction gives you more choices, and most importantly, freedom. You have the freedom to choose how you will use your most valuable asset: time. What if you had someone who could help you navigate the difficulties, fears, and doubts during the most important time of your life?
Have you always wanted to do something you loved, but something kept holding you back? Maybe you felt that you were not good enough or that it would be impossible due to lack of finances. I’ve been there. My addiction to drugs and alcohol lasted from my late teens and into my early twenties. I have been in long-term recovery for the past 12 years and I still can experience these feelings.
Fear has been a dominating factor throughout my life. My first fear was the fear of abandonment. My father was addicted to alcohol and left when I was four years old. My coping mechanism was sucking my thumb. There is nothing wrong with thumbsucking as a toddler, but at eight years old, I still did it every day. My kindergarten teacher wanted to keep me back a year because of my thumbsucking. It was getting out of control. But it brought me ease and comfort, and I would hide it. I was a functioning thumbsucker.
My next addiction was thanks to high-speed internet. At 11 years old, I found myself hooked to a computer screen playing online games. During this time, I discovered the world of online pornography. This addiction affected many of my relationships and kept me isolated. My high school years were tough times. The pressure to fit in and feel a part of did not sit well with me. I played sports for about two years but I eventually quit them all. My social anxiety continued to grow and I would cope by spending most of my time getting lost in a fantasy world on the computer...